My Journey: Building Self-Awareness and Living Non-Judgmentally

It is not our purpose to become each other;

it is to recognize each other, to learn

to see the other and honor him for what he is.” (Herman Hesse)

For the first time, I “recognized,”learned to see the other, and “honored my neighbor for “what she is.”   She was the first neighbor to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood when we moved in three years ago.   Within a year, she had her first cancer recurrence.  As she went through chemotherapy, Hubby and I, along with other neighbors drove her to treatment.

Recognized

Until our long conversation over breakfast several days ago, I only recognized my neighbor as a:

  • Sister Breast Cancer Survivor;
  • Religious Person – Interdenominational Religion that promotes evangelism;
  • Single Female, Never Married, with No Children; and
  • Far Right Conservative Republican – Follower of Fox TV, Glen Beck, Hannity, Rush Limbaugh, etc.

Politically, as far right as she is; I am as far to the left –

  • Religious Person – Protestant Christian Denomination with liberal views on social issues, social justice and equality; and
  • Far Left Progressive Democrat – Follower of Al Sharpton, Ed Schultz, Chris Matthews, with the exception of Morning Joe, all the other MSNBC news shows.

It wasn’t long before we both realized that talking about politics and/or social issues were toxic to our “friendly neighbor” relationship.   We avoid these topics, but we still:

  • schedule occasional lunch dates and other outings;
  • attend church services together from time-to-time; and
  • watch each other’s homes and act as designated emergency contacts.

For more than three years, we have been just “friendly neighbors.”

On Saturday, I invited her to breakfast to celebrate my Six-Year Cancerversary.  I really wanted to celebrate with another survivor.  Before, I could tell her the reason for the invite, she said the dreaded words, “cancer recurrence.”    After hearing this, I deleted Cancerversary as a discussion topic.   I sat quietly and listened.

Learned to See the Other

I truly listened.  I opened my heart.  I looked beyond differences.

I did not challenge her decision to forego any further chemotherapy.  She wants to take whatever time that remains to travel and visit old friends.  This meant tapping into her 401K, but at 60-years-old she believes “death will arrive before retirement.”   Also, after meeting with her Financial Planner, she feels comfortable in drawing down some retirement funds for travel.

Her first stop is Scotland in 45 days.   I enjoyed listening to her stories about when she lived and worked there — the culture, her friends, her work, and the food.

Within 30 days after returning from Scotland, her plan is to visit a close friend in Hungary.  Again, I could have spent hours hearing about the young college students she worked with from all over the world.  She is excited about reuniting with the young man she had mentored while living there.

She is from Massachusetts and we talked at length about the annual vacations with my daughters to Martha Vineyard.   Though she lived in Massachusetts for a number of years, she never visited the Island.  But, she definitely said a visit is in her future.

She talked at length about the close relationship with her mother.  After the death of her father, she gave up world travel, accepted a position in her home office and joined her mother in Florida.   She cared for her mother who died six years ago from Breast Cancer.  And, shortly after that she was diagnosed.   I talked about what it meant to care for my mother the last two years of her life.

After talking with my neighbor yesterday, I no longer “focused on our differences.”  I listened.   I opened my heart.  I “learned” our “similarities” outweigh our “differences.”

Honor

I honor my friend, a Breast Cancer Survivor, for her strength and courage.  She is choosing to follow “her path” on “her journey” to live life to the fullest.

I am grateful our paths intersected and our relationship blossomed from “friendly neighbor” to “friends.”

We both want a  “healthy friends” relationship, and have agreed to read, “Conscious Communication:  How to Establish Healthy Relationships and Resolve Conflict Peacefully while Maintaining Independence,” by Miles Sherts.   As stated in the book’s introduction, we want to:

“learn to communicate with each other in a way

that supports our individuality while also

recognizing our interdependence.”

“Healthy friends” ought to have discussions on politics, religion, social issues, etc., and still respectfully disagree without being disagreeable.

I am on a journey to build self-awareness and live non-judgmentally.

During this final season of my life, I am going on a journey to define "ME." Opening up and going outside of my comfort zone to redefine my life. Exploring and pursuing new interests that will lead to personal happiness, serenity, and tranquility. In undertaking this mission, overcoming the FEAR of starting this new venture as a blogger will be my greatest challenge. Fear has played a large role in my life, but I overcame the FEAR of breast cancer, chronic pain associated with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia, Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, and Sleep Apnea. My new mantra: FEAR has two meanings: "(1) Forget Everything And Run, or (2) Face Everything and Rise. The Choice is Mine." Blogging here I come ready or not!!!

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7 comments on “My Journey: Building Self-Awareness and Living Non-Judgmentally
  1. Jane says:

    beautiful post!
    thanks for sharing this

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    • Thank you so much. I am strengthened by your positive comments. This is a different journey I have chosen to follow in this season of my life and I have stumbled along the way. But, confidence and awareness increasing every day.

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  2. Yes. I agree with Jane. Beautiful.. You and your neighbor both show real maturity and love, which are so often in short supply on this planet. Thank you.

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    • Thank you for your comments. What the two of us are striving to accomplish — honest and open communication; awareness and acceptance of differences; as well as respect and non-judgemnt of each other. We are a work-in-progress, but dedicated to building a “healthy friends” relationship.

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  3. Sharon Abegglen says:

    I am sad/happy for your neighbor. Prayers for her.
    I am excited and happy that you remain cancer free.
    I am blessed that I too am 14 years cancer free.
    You are an amazing woman whom I am happy to know.

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    • Sharon, I am so sorry for the delay in letting you know how much I appreciate your comments on this post. February brought different health issues that I had to deal with. Please to say that March is looking better. You take care and thank you so much for reading and supporting my efforts to “reach out” through this blog.

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  4. Your blog is a nery moving piece of writing and shows a very carefully and thoughtful attempt to demonstrate, compatation, friendship, love and biblical sistership for your friendship with a person who is politically different than your views. I think you did a good writing this material. Yvonne you. Did a great job!!

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